The worried well

I had a bad night once again
That fed the cancer in my brain
I woke up tired aching cold
My nightmares leave me unresolved
My leaden lungs won't let me sigh
I cannot laugh and will not cry
I don't feel good I don't feel bad
Nothing I do could make me glad
My heart is numb my spirit sore
I don't like myself anymore
Not good not bad so numb so sore
No sweet memories to recall
My life is but an endless fall
I've nothing but unfriendly sides
And no one shares my sleepless nights
I don't feel good I don't feel bad
Nothing I do could make me glad
My heart is numb my spirit sore
I don't like myself anymore
Devoid of emotions I live
Of myself I just cannot give
I'm crushed I'll never dare to dream
Why can't I cry ? Why can't I scream ?
I will not cry and will not scream !
I don't feel good I don't feel bad
Nothing I do could make me glad
My heart is numb my spirit sore
I don't like myself anymore
Not good not bad so numb so sore (x2)